I think I've had selective mutism for my whole life. My family dismissed my quietness as mere shyness. They didn't do anything, since they also have shyness and anxiety.
But what happens when someone has selective mutism go untreated for twelve years?
It turned into complete silence.
What came of that? Well, I got teased. I got put under pressure to talk. I got a lot of pressure.
Pressure in a selectively mute person is NOT right.
Expectations for me to talk just make me more anxious.
But nobody expects me to talk anymore.
Nobody cares anymore.
Why am I stressing myself out?
I want help. I need help.
I want to get over this.
But I can't figure out the first steps.
I guess I'll just deal with this untreated silence a while longer.
